You sit there talking about
how you want something else
and I nod and agree
as if I don’t know what you really mean

It’s times like these, I remember, I am severed
right down the middle of my heart
And sometimes I bleed, until I don’t recognize me
And it’s scary to think
You don’t really care

How can I be here
When I am still way back there
Lost in a dying crowd
Get me out! Get me out!

And I’m beggin, beggin you please
Don’t leave me in your past
Choke down your words that won’t let me last

I’m beggin, beggin you please
Don’t leave me here alone
I have a lot goin’, but without you I’m broken

Just kill me now, before it gets harder somehow
I’m barely breathing when I get to thinking
and I need a way out.

I know it’s my choice to remain by this grave
it’s become a haven, for the changing, that is comin’
so here I stay. I’m dying anyway.

But I see a future and it’s lighting up for someone else
and it’s hard to tell
if I belong

I’m beggin, beggin you please
Don’t leave me in the past
Choke down your words that won’t let me last

I’m beggin, beggin you please
Don’t leave me here alone
I’ve got a lot goin’, but without you I’m broken

And it’s hard to describe the trouble I have staying alive
I am stuck in my fear
It straggles and holds
Before I can stop it from closing my throat

You have my heart in pieces
Go ahead and keep it
I don’t need it anymore
Where I am going, I’m sure

I’m beggin, beggin you please
Don’t leave me in the past
choke down your words that won’t let me last

I’m beggin, beggin you please
Don’t leave me here alone
I have a lot goin’, but without you I’m broken

The moonlight played with his face
So I couldn’t tell if he was mournful
Or just honest

Oh, the unique grief at realizing you are not
who you thought you were.

Maybe this is love.
Maybe I am wrong.
Maybe I need more time.
Maybe there is nothing better.
Maybe I am expecting too much.
Maybe I won’t find someone else.
Maybe I am making the wrong choices.
Maybe love is just a commitment and not a feeling.

The doubts stack up in my mind until I am desperate to find a way to undo and re-decide every decision I have ever made.

I think everyone
has someone
they should have told something to

We started off, lazily
Enjoying the time, easily.
And it was all just for fun.
Simple to walk away, when we were done.

But then there was, a deep kiss.
A conversation turned, serious.
And suddenly I’m falling in
To a situation, I can’t win.

But you are not ready to commit.
Your heart is not in this.
You want your cake and eat it too,
And that is exactly what I let you do.

And I’m scared.
You’ll find your way out of here.
And what will I do?
When the best part of me is wrapped up in you.
And how long, can we carry on?
And pretend like this won’t hurt, when it’s gone.

I can try, and bury the feelings I have inside.
But it’s a long way back, to that.
What do you expect me to do?
When I am falling for you.
You want me to be yours.
But you’re still lookin’ for a better girl.
And it’s not fair, to keep me here, until you find her.
Even though I know I’m not enough.
It doesn’t change that I want you so much.

Let me move on.
Maybe you can feel some of this hurt when I’m gone.
But I know what you will do.
Give me just enough of you.
So I keep holding on. Instead.
I know I am being misled.
But I can’t seem to walk away.
So I’ll stay. I’ll stay.

And I’m scared.
You’ll find your way out of here.
And what will I do?
When the best part of me is wrapped up in you.
And how long, can we carry on?
And pretend like this won’t hurt, when it’s gone.

And here you sit now, asking me to give more and more somehow.
But with my heart on the line.
I rather take back what is mine.
Maybe I’m stronger than you think.
Maybe I’ve got a voice and I want to speak.
I’ve done all I can.
And I think I want to find a better man.

And I’m scared.
I won’t find my way out of here.
And what will I do?
If I can’t escape you?
How long, can I carry on?
And pretend like this won’t hurt, when I’m gone.
But I will be soon.
Oh the sweet surrender of losing you.

The first time I saw you, you just walked on by
But I knew everything changed, you woke me up inside
And now I can’t hide, I can’t hide, I can’t hide
I’m terrified.

This is me, here I am.
Do I have your love?
Am I enough?
Here I am, this is me.
Am I enough?
Do I have your love?

That first night, we talked a lifetime.
Just like that, you had all you needed when I turned my back.
You say you won’t hurt me.
Do I believe, do I believe, do I believe
I guess we’ll see.

Somehow you see right through me, to who I should be.
But that doesn’t make it easy, to find my out.
I’m going to let you down, let you down, let you down.
But not now.

This is me, here I am.
Do I have your love?
Am I enough?
Here I am, this is me.
Am I enough?
Do I have your love?

I began with my heart.
Where should it stop, and logic start.
You say we’ll take it slow and take our time.
That sounds right but I’m scared you’ll go
So just stay, just stay, just stay
You’re going to anyway.

I look in your eyes, and get lost inside
I can’t turn away now.
I’m in too deep and I’m too proud.
I want you to love me as I was, as I am and as I’ll be.
But I know, I know, I know
There is still so much to unfold

This is me, here I am.
Am I enough?
Do I have your love?
Here I am, this is me.
Am I enough?
Do I have your love?
Will it hurt too much?
Hurt too much.
This love.